Kimberly

Look Look- 2 days in a row!!! Arn't ya'll proud of me. . . lol does anyone even read this anymore??

Anyway its been an interesting week- thank God its over. I've been amazed once again by how things seem to work out when allowed to. When I stop trying to force things. What I mean is this- I have 3 friends who are nice enough- I mean I get along with them. . . they're just 5 years younger than me and a lot of the things I'm into they have no interest in- the age thing is majorly there. But when I stop trying to hang out with them just because they are there and easy access- then the people that I have so much respect for and that I have much more in common with - and are older- appear. I really have nothing against younger people- I just miss dealing with people my own age- or closer to it. I've always been the youngest in a crowd, now I'm the oldest by 2-5 years. Seriously- in my hall I am the oldest person by over 18 months. And I've got 2 more years here- so its only going to get worse. I find myself craving . . . intelligent conversation. Debate on world issues, philosophical meanderings on modern interpretations of classic literature. . . stuff that upper division college students tend to discuss, not who's hotter Ryan Secrest or Ryan Cabrera(who I had never heard of until I met these girls). I could care less whether I should wear brown or blue eyeshadow with my sweater. And - the biggest thing- I AM SOOOOO sick of hearing about what happened in ROTC in high school. Yay you had a great time I'm thrilled. The occasional anicdote is fine- even welcomed- but the constant narrative history of the Mt. Home ROTC 1999-2004 is really too much! You've graduated- move on!!! Welcome to college- GET YOUR ASS OUT OF YOUR ROOM, off the computer and GO MAKE NEW MEMORIES!!! sigh. These girls JUST graduated high school- I know it takes time to move on, but I graduated 5 years ago- I'm passed it. So spending time with people who are well into their college experience is a refreshing change. When I go out dancing I don't want to take a bunch of squeeling 18 year old's I'm going to have to babysit because they all want to convince some older guy to buy them alcohol that they will get expelled if they consume (as will I for contributing) I want to go with people who arn't obsessed with alcohol and sex because its new! I never noticed age issues in California- why are they so major here???

**steps off soap box** So yea- Jene came to my room last night and we talked for like 45 minutes. THen Justin (one of the guys on drama team) sat down with me at lunch. IT was refreshing to chat with them. I want to hang with them and other old people more.

My parents are driving up tomorrow. They will stay in a hotel overnight and watch me perform Sunday. I'm excited. yup yup. I should tell mom to bring my video camera so we can record it... IN FACT!!! I WILL!!! yay.

Well.... only 3 months this time- thats an improvement right?

Quicky Update on the past 3 months- Broke up with Jeremy, still friends though. Its kinda shocking- to be friends with someone post-dating. I like though. And I do mean friends- no romantic intrest on either side- he's just too young for me (he just turned 20). I have a couple of possibilities- guys who I'm in like with who are flirtatious and I'm completly satisfied with my (lack of) romantic life. I survived last semester with a 2.96 cumulative. So so close. Basically my advanced composition teacher is incredibly difficult- hates my writing, and thinks that all 12 of us in that class should be writing at the graduate level. Seriously- he gave us crappy crappy grades. I should have knowen better than trying to take an advanced comp class when I've taken NO upper division english classes and done NO writing at the college english level for over 2 years. It was a dumb mistake.

My Grades:
E Lit 1- B
World Lit 2- B
Advanced Comp- D
Intro To teach- C (don't ask...)
Consumer Math- A
Not my best semester ever- but I'll take it!

This semester I have
E lit 2
20th Cen Novel
19th Cen Brit Novel
Adolescent Development
Educational Technology
Oral Interpretation.

Easy peasy... NOT. Nah I'm surviving. Reading a LOT. I've moved dorm rooms 3 times. My first because I had unreconsilable differences with my roomate- basically I felt nighttime was for sleeping- she prefered daytime. Its hard to co-exist when you're on opposit sleep scheduals. Second room was fabulous- I had a solo room. With no heat. **insert shiver here** I froze thru the first part of my first real winter. Damn. So... when I moved back on campus after break I moved to a room with heat. Still a solo room- slightly smaller though. But its just me so its fine. I like it. Next year I will either be in the honors apartments (I need a 3.0- have a 2.96... I can do it) OR I will stay in this room till I graduate.

I'm on the drama team- we rehersed all last semster- had our first performance last sunday- it went wonderfully. Wow. I'm over my stage fright and in love with the audience. Guess what?? I'm funny!!! Scarry thought ehe? Anyways that is a wonderful experience- I love it to death!

I work as the Media Specialist- that means that I am in charge of preparing all the "media" for the new freshman orientation program that starts next year. That ranges from Videos to Power Point to literature... you name it! basically my boss (one of the religion professors) and I are creating the program ourselves. Its an interesting experience for sure.

Next year I will be school photographer. I had an interview about 2 weeks ago- showed him my portfolio (yes I have a portfolio now) and got the job instantly. Some of my pictures will even be in this years yearbook. I'm excited about that.

So what's not wonderful in my life? Well I have a "shadow." A freshman girl who has latched onto me and just thinks I'm queen of the world. She's a very annoying person- but a total sweetheart. Its an excercise in patience learning to tolerate her. I've been good though- I haven't snapped at her EVER and yea.. basically I've not killed her and thats exciting to me. Other than that I would say my life is pretty damn wonderful.

I still love Arkansas. I had this conversation just under one year ago with my friend Adam:
doIdream00: Think I can surive in a little farm town?
adamred23: you, I think so
adamred23: I think a lot of people in cali are out of place
doIdream00: :-) I hope so. I'll either blossom or wither.

I have definatly blossomed. The only thing I miss about Cali is the warmth and Disneyland. Well and my friends of course.

So thats whats going on with me. Now why am I writing in LJ again? Well basically because of something that happened at school. Everyone at Williams uses Xanga- which is similar to LJ. (www.xanga.com/stagesings -thats me) Well a girl posted that she didn't like the school and was only here because the school gave her so much money. The president called her into his office the next day and took away her scholarships. Now on one hand- I can understand and if she doesn't appreciate the money then give it to someone who does. On the other hand- something she said in a blog not associated in any way with the school- got this girl basically kicked out of school. She had to leave because she can't afford to pay the difference. I know the girl personally- I know it happend- this is NOT rumors. So... although I don't post anything against the school in my Xanga- I still don't feel comfertable using it as a blog anymore. So now my Xanga is just going to be my school comunication and I'm going to try to come back to LJ. I will make an effort to read everyone's posts- get caught back up. I've been doing that a bit today- and wow have I missed a lot. Mavi I didn't even know you had left Canada. So.. yea. Stage is back :-) Wish I could change my name here to Stage. But its too much work to change an LJ title or make a new one. Plus ods are I'll be evolving into a new name very very soon anyway. Stage has been wonderful- but its time is growing short. I'm a new person now- time to find a name for that person.

Okay so I listed a BUTT load of ponies on ebay- and they all closed last night. Normal ehe? Well I only accept Pay Pal because of the hassel I have had with other payments. I state that VERY CLEARLY and also state NO EXCEPTIONS. And I let them know that if thats not acceptable to them DON"T BID. Some people don't get it.

I had one person e-mail me 3 days before the auction ended saying "I have 2500 feedback and I am willing to pay pal but I would prefer to pay MO as I would have to set up a pay pal account just for this auction" I checked out her feedback and said "I don't like it but sure.. since you have feedback to back you up.. I'll do that for ya" Ehe no big deal- and yes she ended up winning. I'm not upset about this one BECAUSE SHE HAD THE CURTOSIE TO ASK!!

I get an email last night (after the items closed) saying "I'm in austrailia how much is shipping- please not much because i'm a poor student. And I will be paying by Money ORder" Umm. 1- if yo uare poor DON"T FLIIPING BID and 2- no you are NOT paying by money order babyglory17. You have 0- nada zilch feedback to confirm you are a reliable person and YOU DIDN"T ASK FIRST. I replied and said "No paypal only and as a warning if you can't do this you will get a non-paying bidder strike because this is abinding contract you entered into and I clearly stated PAY PAL ONLY" She replies "Then I won't be paying and please don't neg me and leave me with a NPB" so what- I should just NOT warn other ususers of your in ability TO READ DIRECTIONS? or that you blindly entere in to a contract that YOU KNOW YOU CAN"T FULLFIL?? gah. If you had e-mailed me like a normal person I would have told you BEFORE YOU BID that I wouldn't make an exception. GAH GAH GAH. I Hate this. If the person who bid under her doesn't accept it- the next person bid $44- she bid $51.. so I'll have lost $6. IT SUCKS!!!! Stupid bint.

/rant off

As of tomorrow (I'll be out of town so I"m doing this today) I will have been On Live Journal
FOUR YEARS

Isn't that exciting? I think so. Its amazing to think that I have been doing this for 5 years. Not everyday. but still I have consistantly kept a journal for 4 years!!!! :-) I started out under the name APUtechie. I have transfered every (and I do mean EVERY 2.5 years worth of) entries to this name. ;-) if anyone is wierd or crazy enough to want to see what I was like at 18, innocent, fresh outta high school and just starting that huge ole adventure at APU that would eventually turn my life upside down and change everything. Its been a wild ride.. Thanks to all of you guys on my F-list. I may be quiet right now but I LOVE reading you and I think you are all awsome amazing people. **sniff** I'm getting nastalgic. LOL okay I'm off to class but before I go

Here is my very first LJ entry:

I'm really getting into this journal thing- I have virtualexile to thank I supose. I really do enjoy this. So now I can keep a record of my randomw thoughts. My random thought right now is I'm hungry I wonder how busy the Caf is right now. Hmmm.... I think I'll head over and check it out. Then I REALLY need to get some homework done. Oh my roomate and her friends just got here- I'm definatly OUTTA HERE!!


I just realized I'm an idiot... 2001 to 2005 is 4 years not 5. But Still 4 YEARS!!!

Its Disney Themed- it starts April first and runs about 2 months. If you are interested check out the website and apply!

http://www.stagesdream.com/Survivor/home.htm

I just found your new lil survivor game (which I LOVE!!!... can I steal the idea when you are done and do a Big Brother Version??? if not its cool... Just an idea)

But I'm lazy... What date did you start it??? ('s gonna take me forever to go back manually and I'm sure to miss something)

Its no biggy- If you comment you will be added- 90% probability you will be! I just wanna make sure I know who is reading so I know if people are twisting my words who is doing the twisting!

My first baby was born on PI. Now if I can just get one exactly his color.. but female... with back hair.... I'de name it stage!!!!

http://www.ponyisland.net/index.php?src=user.php&uid=3423&site=stb&pny=10085

This is frusterating. I sent a Money Order 3 weeks ago for the Kingdom Hearts game. The seller has not contacted me and the one time I contacted him he said ... "I WAS waiting for payment." Well I tracked the money order and it was cashed last week... So where the hell's my game. Why arn't you answering emails?

I sent anoter email today- thru ebay. So if I dn't get a response I will begin filing fraud. All I have heard is how cool this game is ... and I was so excited to buy it.

This is why I HATE people who don't accept paypal. I don't usually buy from people who don't accept paypal- but this one game with te strategy guide and I swear I saw the paypal logo when I bid. I'm sooo pissed. URRRG

And I got a new icon... it cracks me up... from _ikonsofkat

be sorted @ nimbo.net

Lol... I never knew..

faeriewoman's LJ stalker is spoosh!

spoosh is stalking you because you are really good at bowling. They are also stalking you in real life. Look out!

Had a nice day(night) at work. Josh was our lead. Wasn't bad. I expected it to be- after all the horror stories. But he was very decent. A bit funny cause he didn't know how to do some stuff. But he was nice. He was the only lead change I was worried about. . . but maybe it won't be so bad.

Dad's gone. For a week. GOing to Washington to see the King... okay not really. He's gone to Washington to talk to the Educational board to find out if they are going to fund us. Cross your fingers people.

And I feel sick. DOn' know if it has anything to do with it.... but I'm sick. Uggg. I'm fine all weekend and the day I have to go back to work I get sick.


Figures.

One last thing- and believe me when I say it is the last post I'll make on the topic because I do not wish to stir up more trouble or loose friends over this.


OKay because I"m the curious type I wanted the other side of the story. Because my concious was pricking at me for just assuming that Cougar was the bitch and Sam was the victem. So I hunted down Cougar's entry about the whole deal.

And it just confirmed my feelings and took me back to the whole survivor battle. There was a misunderstanding. She said something that was blown way out of proportion. When someone tried to defend a friend Cougar imediatly beat them down. Caused herself to apear spotless and innocent when her harshness hurt several people. So now one person is Marked as a Psycho and another as a lier.

Can no one see that Cougar is just as guilty as anyone else????? Can no one see what a horrid bully she is? And a damn Hypocrit??? All those things she accused me of doing in survivor- she is sitting here doing the exact damn thing and defending it? When I had a problem with Spoosh in the game I took it up with Him. In the journal. But everyone seemed to condem me for getting pissed at the man. Well I'm sorry- as much as I love Spoosh he's not perfect and he's not some God that is above our anger. Now that problem is LONG since dealt with and over. But as much as cougar and others (Pooh) condemed me for my anger then it sure is interesting they are now saying its the best course of action. Also Confetti says that she was "defended" against me. From what? Me saying she lied? well she did Lie!!!! She even says she did... so what the hell was she being defended from? Someone shoving the way she played the game in her face? Well gee shoulda thought of that before you decided to use that tactic. Sigh. Not gonna rehash this.

OKay I'm done with the matter. Because I'm not involved in it as much as it frusterates me. Sam I'm sorry. I'm so sorry you went thru this. But friendships are like Iron, unless they are tempered by fire they will crumble and break.

So... was reading back on journal entries. Found out that someone I used to have a problem with caused some shit for a friend. Pisses me off. How someone who can be so damn blasted cruel to me, and I don't now the story of what happened to the other person,but what ticks me off is that this person who can hurt both me and one of the my favorite people.... is still beloved of so many other wonderful people- while the two of us are basically outcasts. Its not fucking fair.

Why people feel the need to take sides... to embrace a winner in a battle that they have nothing to do with, and force the looser out of their confidences.

Theres nothing I can do about it. . . . .but at least I can express my frusteration.

Pony island is becomming more addicting as i get closer to having ponys grow up. . .or be born.

I've realized something. These companies that install little things on your computer to ferrit out information and use it to spring pop ups on you every time you access the web, or a million other intrusive little things, They are horrible. I hate them. My compuer is a very private thing. What I do on the internet is private and personal. I don't appreciate people just shoving their way into it. ... I just feel very violated right now. That is all.

WHAT HAPPENED TO SAM??????????

Last night- went to a get together at Darrel (crystal's cousing)'s house. It was akward at first cause it was all their family and no friends... but then more disney people came (and some highschool friends) and it was fun. GOt tipsy... that was fun. Had a big discussion in the bed of "My" truck. Also there was a bit of drama when some people who hadn't been invited showed up... wasn't that kinda party- this was an RSVP only cause it was small and family was there and kids. So yea... much fun.

he interview yesterday went very well. Did the first 2 of 4 rounds... am very hopeful for a call for the 3rd (and 4th... because he said he would do both of them together) round. The neopets office is SOOOO cool. Very spacious and pretty. Lots of happy people and lots of Neopets lying around... some nifty artwork. Annd.. ya know that room thats always on the neocam? Well I got to see it....kinda. I'm hoping if i come back I'll get a tour. Also the CEO and the COO (adam and donna?) want to meet every employee... which I think is awsome in a company this size. So yea.... that was that. Was at neopets from 9:15 to 2pm. long ass day. then went to work for 5 hours. (where phyllis left me point.. yea!!!)

I need more happy icons.....


That is all.